“If you want to make your dreams come true, the first thing you have to do is wake up.” ~J.M. Power
Yesterday, I started to wake up. I hadn’t realized before then, just how deeply asleep I was. I should have. I am old enough, and have lived through enough to notice my slumber, I would think. I didn’t until yesterday.
I have spouted Oprah constantly to my friends, my family, and my blog at every opportunity. “Take control of your own life!” “Live authentically!” I have quoted and believed, while not actually doing it.
I have allowed myself to live under someone else’s thumb my entire life. I have looked around and believed that this is the hand I have been dealt, and I just had to live with it, and accept it. I realize now how wrong I have been. I see, now more than ever, the obligation I have to myself, and to my children to want better, and to do better. Again, an Oprah quote, “When you know better, you do better.” I am going to make it better for all of us.
I know that this is going to be a hard year. I am well aware that what I am about to put in motion will change everything for all of us, forever. I am by no means expecting it to be easy or familiar, or anywhere near my comfort zone. I welcome it all. I want 2011 to be about taking chances. About working hard, and loving freely and fiercely, and looking back and being proud.
I wish I could be more specific, and detail my plans if only for myself to process them,but I still have stalker issues, so that will have to wait. I have a plan, though. I have people ready to assist me in putting these plans into action. That feels good. I have hope for this year. I am waking up.