Day 1: Something you hate about yourself……………
Okay, so this one is hard, right off the bat. Not because there is nothing that I hate about myself, but rather, having spent years with no self-esteem, and even less self-worth, there is a great reservoir to choose from. These days, I really try not to dwell on them, but I’m sure I can pull some out for the purpose of this challenge.
I am too forgiving. Like to the point that I become worthy of doormat status. Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s a good thing to forgive, a necessary thing even. I just think that if the same thing keeps happening, over and over and over again, there comes a point that you have to deviate from the well read script of forgiveness.
I am too open with people. Again, this is a good thing in most cases, but it’s like I don’t know when to shut my damn mouth sometimes. Giving people too much information, too soon, gives them the power to hurt you deeply. And really, I have always wanted to be one of those silent people, you know? The people that are so easy to talk to, but you really don’t know that much about them? Yeah, that will never be me.
I care about people’s opinion of me way too much. I am always the first one to tell my kids not to worry about what other people think if they feel good about who they are. Seems I can’t follow my own advice. I want my boss to like me. I want my co workers to like me, even the ones that I don’t necessarily like. I want STRANGERS to like me!