I was separated for over a year. I lived apart from Mr. Wrong for 6 months of that time. During those 6 months, I heard all types of promises from Mr. Wrong. I heard how if I gave him another chance, I would never be sorry, that he was ready to accept responsibility for things he has done wrong, he was willing to talk to me about those things. I was told he knew how wrong he has been, and just needed a chance to make it up to me. I was all he wanted, all he needed.

I was played.

I came back mainly because of a family emergency, one that is still ongoing. I wouldn’t have come back, however, if I didn’t believe all of the promises that he made to me. I have been played before, I can’t believe I fell for it again. This is worse though, because I have 20 years of history with this man. I have stood by him during some of the most impossible situations I can imagine, I have stayed with him when everyone around me knew I should leave, and for what?

So, the question now is, where do I go from here? I really have no answer for that. I know that I will not leave my children again, and I won’t leave my home again. I know that no one can say that I haven’t given this marriage every possible chance. I tried my best. I will continue to try. I can’t do it alone though, and I really don’t think it’s fair to expect me to.

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One Response to Played

  1. paulapet says:

    You aren't in a marriage alone, you shouldn't be the only one expcected to change or work on it. Your answer will come just wait and listen

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